By Request

I am writing again.
these days, my life is just fucking mess up. body doesnt feel right, mind doesnt feel fresh. i wish i got a reboot button in my body, everything just start right from the beginning. having been in this fucking place for almost half year, since i am still calling this a fucking place, you know how much i dislike it. coming across with all kinds of people, trying my very best for not to compromise with some bitches and jerks. i am in the middle of counterpoint and schenkerian analysis plus a bit of fucking chinese music shit. i did another drawing in my analysis class, its not schenkerian graph, but another great illustration, once i got the time, i will scan it for all of you to comment.

my 2 best friends, i wish i am there to stay with you gals. while i am still struggling in my single life, you gals have so many relationships and things going on around you. i dunno what to say, love is just something that i am not good at playing. i know, i am going to fall in another jerk again. but this time, i forseen how it is going to be, i won't let myself to fall into that trap again. never again. staying in a distance. i wish i am not too bored. i wish i am with you gals. i wish i am in nowhere. i wish nothing has really happened. i wish i wont have nightmare again tonite. i wish i am doing fine. i wish i wont be tired again. i wish i am not that fucking stupid. let's make a deal, let's quit.

next week, start travelling again, this is always my own way to prove that i am still alive. this is the only way. cant wait to see you, ar bi and dada.