the feeling of not able to sleep while you are in extremely tired condition, is ABSOULTEY unbearable.
not enough sleep, equals to not much wanna eat.
and up till today, finally my body is giving me a warning:
'you gotta sleep and eat.' begin to throw up a little, and faint a little.
still got 15 hours flight ahead, will i be able to handle that.
i have been taught myself not to have much hope or expectation on anything since the first time my heart broken.
i don't feel any more happier nor sad.
maybe as i told my friend, i don't know how to be in love anymore.
i am just a robot, reminds me faye wong in 2046. i got trapped.
i am not trapped to any particular person that i loved or missed.
i am simply trapped. in a way that even i myself have no idea why.
that was a sweet dream. love is momentary. real love.
memory is the only thing that we can forever hang on to.
sorry Benjamin button, we cried.
not being able to remember who you ever loved is the saddest thing in the world.
i could still feel the pain sometimes. pain is beautiful.
just like i still believe, living is already a miracle. life is a magic.
Victor Mancini, 'What would jesus not do?'
10:14 AM 2/12/2009 @ chicago O'hare airport.
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