in this two hours time, my heart is lifted from light to heavy. after more than 3 hours, i can't even drop a tear. i am upset, utterly sad. the next day i wake up, i am going to transform. i am a fluffy smelly panda who only know about eating bamboo and sleep. i am such a failure, i can't use better word to describe myself. i gave up this blog for long, because i can't put my feelings into words anymore. i hate myself, i hate hong kong, i hate where i am, i hate what i am doing. where am i supposed to be?
thanks my beloved friend for telling me my dearest 'boyfriend' is seeing someone else.
thanks my ex for telling me he is getting married next year.
what is wrong with me? what have i done wrong?
where am i suppose to go in december now? i am not dare to go back anymore.
the smoke went through my lungs, it's been 3 months.
no matter how much smoke how much alcohol.
it can never bring me away from the reality.
i am clean.
i gotta be clean.
i am sick.
關於我
- sadie
- A tomato couple: A couple of nothing, but share the same thing. They look like each other, but they may taste differently from one another. Some are sweet, some are sour, some are bitter......I am one of the tomato, waiting for another tomato, turning into a couple. Waiting can sometime be wasteful, wait, waste. Time is waiting, wasting time. Yes or no, come and go, I am just a tiny tomato, looking for a right one to be a couple. I dun want neither a miracle nor a hero. I only want my beloved tomato.
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