leave me alone.

are you ready to let go the past?
am i ready to leave?
are you; am i ready?

i don't feel love nor hatred.
i feel the sadness in our eyes.
it's perfectly fine to say no.
it's absolutely alright to say goodbye.

i am a legless bird.
i refuse to land, once i land, i have to learn how to fly all over again.
maybe i am woodstock, who keep on trying to fly, but end up hitting the window.
sometimes, we forgot to ask ourselves one very simple question,
'are you happy now?'

sadness in our eyes.

i am sorry, i feel old.
i am tired of mind tricks. either yes or no. there is nothing in between.
i am here to search for happiness. stop looping yourself into my life.
i am not here to rescue you from your past.
neither do i need you to rescue me from my past.
i dont have any past. i am currently living my own life.

it is me, not cos of him!

after a week, from losing interest, appetite, to now, appetite is back. eating snacks, chatting with him again.

after a pack of cig., this is how i feel. it is not him who can't handle this relationship anymore. the fact is, i can't. i can't live without love.

year of rat, should be another good year for the year of dog.

in praise of love. here, there and everywhere.

i am glad this is over.

他突然的出現，也突然的消失。
他關上門的那一刻，淚終於流下了。
昨天是k 的生日，也是k的十字架回歸之日，也是我們決定結束的一日。

怎樣輾轉也睡不來，狠狠地舌下藥，勉強睡了。
藥力失效，零晨時份醒來，他已走了，留下的只有氣味。

我是怒的。我不是貨物，也不是你們的玩意，請不要把我推到別人手中。

i am glad this is over.
2008 has just started, things are not running very well.
i don't have to wait till april to let the bad things happened, cos everything is done by feb. 2nd.
i will be fine. i will be fine.
i will be fine.

tracing back the trail i walked through,
the answer to this path only has one but not two.
this is you.

looking at myself, reminding what every single of you have said.
time to stop this loop.
i don't understand. why this is always how its end?

i am glad this is over.
thanks for letting me out.
war is over. game is over.
time to start over.
shut down, restart.
life is going to be better.