love begins when one ends.

linger.
my hair turns red again. the color fading with a sense of lavender smell.
the softness reminds me of your gentleness.
momentary love is the most precious.
i am enjoying my romantic solitude.

romance

it was like one of the movie scene happened in venice. i sat down for a coffee before rushing to work. it was a beautiful day with the sun shinning through the glass windows. i picked a seat with a comfy sofa, facing the street, busy people noisy cars. he smiled. we both talked in our second language. trying to understand each other hard. we laughed. life is full of unexpectation.

'sorry, i gotta go.'
'hope to see you soon.'

we all need some romance.
let's kiss.

i miss my ps shoes.

life is dramatic.
i feel good this afternoon, life is beautiful.
i feel bad now, life is dreadful.

Gran Torino

it's not the first time that i watched clint eastwood's movie alone. last time was million dollar baby. feel good to watch a movie on my own, havent do that for a long time. it's an amazing movie. the lines are great, actors are great. plot is great. i was laughing so hard in the first half of the movie, people kept turning their head and look at me to see who the hell this girl was laughing about. 'come on, Hong Kongers, please dont just read the subtitles, listen to what they actually say. the slang they use. it's so freaking funny.' ( of cos, the foreigner sitting right behind me was also laughing like mad, just like me) well, can't believe i end up crying at the end of the movie. it's sad. tears dropping. time stops.

i like the little episode that i encountered at that addidas concept store today. maybe next time.

my blueberry nights

almost forgot this movie, until someone told me cat power was in it. she is sexy, mysterious, captivating. i wish i am chan marshall. i will never forget who bought me the first cat power cd. The greatest.

try not to comment on norah jone's acting. i like jude law a lot, especially with his manchester accent. british accent simply sounds so sweet to me. the scene of jude law and chan marshall. it's just love. i love the kiss. ex lovers loved. sweetness melts in their lips.

BB

psychologically pregnant.
wanting a baby boy.
blue eyes, red hair? or dark brown eyes, black hair?
according to the news, sooner or later, we can create our baby. by choosing the color of their eyes and hair.
how could we be God?

Missing Jesus.

don't hesitate, before it's too late.

i feel the urge to write before i forget. i am falling in love with cat power. what a captivating voice. i wanna be cat power. i wanna sleep with her. i wanna dance with her. her soul deep sexy voice grasp my heart tight.

knocking on the door, a deer answered.
would you dance with me?
i am a panda from the bamboo jungle.
please save me by dancing with me.
i can't stop my tears from falling.
rain splashing with insecurity.
dreams.
do you remember the first time?
do you remember the first time?
do you remember..........
empty shell, blank sheet.

in search for cat power.

networking; communication.

i hate networking, facebook-ing. there are people in your life, that you have been trying so hard to get rid of, facebook-ing always remind you they are still alive, earth is still moving, they are still happy as always. i am trying to avoid using facebook, i don't wanna know who is getting married, who is breaking up. i don't wanna know who went to Maldives for honeymoon. I HATE IT. i am not saying i am jealous, i simply don't wanna get involved or know. i am so proud of my 2 friends who never have a facebook account. what a smart idea for not having one. i prefer hand written letter than sending me an email. i prefer mailing me a cassette tape than sending me a mp3. i am a grumpy old lady in these rainy days.

For the one that i am so not wanna know what's going on in your life, if there is even once that we will ever bump into each other on the street, don't even bother to say Hi to me. I will only say this following,'get the fuck out of me'. you may say i am childish, i am not. you are the one who put me into this situation. goodbye.

rainy days = grumpy panda

is freedom bringing us happiness or more responsibility?
is responsibility a burden or a way to let us grow up?

right, jesus is still jesus. panda is still panda. bamboo is still bamboo.
what change is, panda no longer eating bamboo. bamboo no longer feeding panda. panda and bamboo no longer believe in jesus.

enough bullshit. time to spend some quality moment with my comfy muji blanket cover.

Zzzzzz...........

sleep is all i need. i am a panda who needs at least 12 hours of sleep a day. starting from 3 weeks ago, i constantly lacking of sleep. don't even have a day sleep more than 12 hours. where are my dreams? loveless dreams.

Dreams by Cat Power
Dream, dream, dream, dream
Dream, dream, dream, dream

When I feel blue in the night
I want you to hold me tight
Whenever I want you
All I have to do is dream

I can make you mine
Taste your lips of wine
Anytime night or day
Only trouble is, gee whiz
I’m dreaming my life away

I need you so that I could die
I love you so and that is why
Whenever I want you
All I have to do is dream

Dream, dream, dream
Dream, dream, dream

When I feel blue in the night
And I want you to hold me tight
Whenever I want you
All I have to do is dream

I can make you mine
Taste your lips of wine
Anytime night or day
Only trouble is, gee whiz
I’m dreaming my life away

I love you so that I could die
I need you so and that is why
Whenever I want you
All I have to do is dream

Dream, dream, dream
Dream, dream, dream

'Chan Marshall, may i sleep with you?'

Cat Power - Dreams (Japan bonus track)