am i going to regret?

whenever you have to make a decision, you will ask yourself one very simple question, am i going to regret if i do this, or am i going to regret if not?

in a little situation now. am i going to regret if i don't meet him once again before i leave?
am i going to regret in my entire life if i am not going to see him again?
am i going to regret if i am going to meet him again?
what he meant to me? my little memory in the states?

am i going to regret? should i take that extra step to mend the situation now?
am i ?
am i?

smoke coming from the sky,
wonder whats going on behind.
wave my hand and say goodbye,
stop dreaming is wise.

或許，我還在學懂明白自己。
再痛一次，那又如何﹖

a week after break

after all, i feel like writing again.
back for a week. play after play. drama after drama.
now, i gotta ask one very simple question.
how to let go of something when we don't ever have that something?
is it that simple that we can get over it in just a slight second?
there is always a difference between hong kongers and Americans, we don't get drunk that so often. the soberness reminds us we are still in love. occasionally we will get wasted. maybe all my friends already passed through that 'i wanna get drunk' stage. remember when i was still at studying at hku, joel and i went down to that pub, be friends with the pub owner, closed the pub just for us, tequila shots, whiskey, and i still remembered how she threw up on my favorite Levi's jeans on our way home.

we all need a little drunk to release our emotion. we all need a little break from our sentimental feeling.

perhaps, all we need is a little love.
i wish all to be in love.

敵不過自己

以為會好的。
我想在上機前，說了些不該說的，現在就這樣靜下來了。
是好事吧，至少在這一向多事的四月，少了一件要讓我煩惱的事。
記得某友人在我回港時說了這樣的一句話，「說什麼專一﹖那根本也談不上是愛情。」
雖然那話的矛頭並不是指向我，但那刻我的心寒了一陣。
說什麼專一﹖我根本沒有資格去要求專一。從前沒有，現在都沒有。
沒有別的要再去想，因為已經我們之間已再沒有什麼了。

靜悄悄，走了。
說不想你，騙自己吧。